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Monday, June 28, 2010

I don't know what day it is, so I'll start again!

Alright, I hit a few bumps in the road. I'm now moving forward. I can't dwell on the past, if I do, I'll defeat my whole progress before I start.

Today, I signed up for Weight Watchers Online and I'm going to go jogging with my hubby tonight. I'm going to start at week one of the 8 week program and push through. I can't make excuses for my slacking off the past couple of months, because when I comes down to it, no one else controls me! I stopped when my dad got sick and then never picked up again...until now. So, out with the old and in with the new! Yeah me!!!

OK, so I'm starting at 251 lbs., I'm still 5 foot 6 and 1/2 (have to add the 1/2, I use to be 5 foot 7) :) I'm keeping my journal online, which is pretty cool, because you can add a recipe in and it will tell you how many points it's worth.

Also, I've found my next 5K event. Because it's so frickin hot here in AL, I picked 1 that is in Sept. (still hot, but not Africa hot) Hubby is going to do that 1 with me and then there's 1 in Dec. So we have some work to do.

So I'm on the move again, can you catch me??????

“Running is a big question mark that's there each and every day. It asks you, 'Are you going to be a wimp or are you going to be strong today?” ~~~Peter Maher

Monday, April 12, 2010

Day 83 - Still here...just had take a few days off

Ok, don't think that I've jumped off the face of the earth, I just stepped off for a week or two. It's time to get back into the race.

I had to take a week, my father has been sick. I went home to NJ to help my parents out. He has to go back into the hospital for a procedure, so just keep him in your prayers.

Back to the running thing. I'm going to start back tomorrow. Let's see how that works out. Wish me luck!

Talk to you soon

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Day 67 - RumpShaker 5K is here!

This morning was a morning filled with emotions, self doubt and triumph. I completed my first 5K. The energy before the race was amazing. I really don't think that I have ever felt that.

We got up around 5am to get ready for our day, had breakfast, showered and we were out the door. We got to the RumpShaker and had just under an hour. We walked a little to warm up and did some stretching. We made our way over to the starting line and waited. I had my iPod going strong with some Duffy, Beyonce and some Christina Christina Aguilera and just waited. The weather was beautiful, you could hear the cars going overhead and you could smell Dreamland BBQ in the air. Saw a lot of different people. You had your racing for an award people, you had the middle of the road people (kind of where we were) and then you had the people there that were going to be walking it. A few minutes past 8am, we started. It was a little strange at first, we were like cattle going through a shoot and then we hit the open road. I was trying to keep a good pace. I kept trying to jog for a few moments and then a fast pace walk. We started going over this bridge and I was struggling a bit. I started to have some self doubt going on. I started telling myself, "What the F*@% are you doing? Why are you doing this?. And at that very moment, I had a mental slap in the face. I was doing this to prove to myself that I can do whatever I set my mind to do. The best t-shirt that I saw today said, "Finish what you Started". I kept saying that in my head.

The first mile marker seemed to come out of nowhere, I looked at my stop watch and it was at 14:40. I was thinking in my head, that wasn't so bad. I'm a little winded, but still, not bad. The second mile, my lungs felt like they were on fire. I swear, flames were shooting out from my chest. (FLAMES!!!) Mi chesto, el fuego! (sorry my Spanish is a little ruff).

Anyway, I think they kept moving the 2nd mile marker. The second mile was at 29:33. We make it through to mile 3, by this point, I couldn't feel my legs anymore. I think the fire that was in my chest now moved to my legs. We would jog, then walk and continue that way. So I see the 3rd mile marker, saying to myself...SWEET, I'm almost there. I looked up and saw the blue and white balloons and I knew we were almost there. That last quarter mile, we jogged, full strength. It was awesome! Just before the finish line, Hubby reached for my hand and we jogged across together. It was truly amazing! Of course, we are about 10 feet pass the finish line and I felt like I was going to throw up....No, really, I felt like I was going to throw up! You have to understand, this was a lot for me. That couch is awfully comfortable. I cried a little, just because I realized that I can change my life. I don't want to just sit there and let life go by me. I knew at that point, that I had jumped in with both feet. Final time 46 mins. 35 sec., that my unofficial time. I'll update this when I get my official time.

I know that I kid around a lot about myself and the things that I do. But this time it was different. I didn't feel out of place, I didn't feel like everyone was looking at me, I didn't tug at my t-shirt because it was a little snug. I didn't let myself stop and turn around. I fought for this one and won!!!!!

I just want to thank all of my friends and family that have supported me so far in my journey. I have made it to this point, but it's not over. Please keep supporting me and keep pushing me. To my Jillian Michaels, thanks for putting this challenge in my face. I know that you had my back, even 900 miles away. I also know that you will always have my back. You are an awesome friend and I'm lucky to have you in my life. Keep challenging me, you know that I need that kick in the ass every now and again. And finally to my Hubby, I really couldn't have done this without you there pushing, poking and jogging by my side. You didn't make me feel like I was holding you back. I'm so glad that I accomplished this with you! You have a way to make me feel so special and I thank you for that. Please keep being my rock.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Day 64 - The day has come!

This Sat. is the big day. I'm just going to get out there and have some fun! Bring it on.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Day 54 - Hit a new wall and didn't overcome it.

Let's start off with some good news. Weighed myself yesterday and I was down 6lbs. So, I'm now at 243. Almost out of the 240. Whahoo!!!

Now, about the wall....Not sure what really happened, maybe I just wasn't into it, maybe just some tired legs. Today was suppose to be my 20 min jog....let's just say that didn't happen. I struggled with the first 5 min. and couldn't make it up. I did what I could and only lasted the first 10 mins. I just didn't have it in me. I'm seriously doubting my ability to complete a 5K. I guess I just have to look at this first 5K as a starting point, right? I'll do what I can for this one and the next one, I'll push myself a little harder.

So with that being said, I have 2 weeks until the RumpShaker. My goal for the next 2weeks is to try and jog for 20 mins. We'll see what happens.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Day 52 - Jog cut short by creepy man

OK, so I'm out for my jog just now and doing my day 2 of week 4 (2, 8min jogs surrounded by 5min fast walks). As I'm heading out, I notice a man in a green mustang pulling into a driveway. He then gets out and stands there for a moment. I continue my jog (which by the way, I only had to walk 3, 10sec breaks because I couldn't do the full 8 min straight), anyway, I'm heading back doing my 5min walk when I notice this car and the guy pulling into an unfinished road in my sub-division. He gets out and puts his hood up and stands there. Now I'm about 4 houses past this road and I turn and see him start to walk in my direction. I decided not to continue my jog, because I would have had to go past him again. I pulled out my cellphone and called my hubby and left a message with his description, just in case. He might have just been heading back to the house that I saw him at in the first place, but I just didn't want to risk that.

So now, I feel half done. I'm all sweaty, I think that I was actually walking faster then I jogged. :) I guess Sunday will be my next jog. I'll let you know how I make out.

Always carry your cellphone with you and above all, if you do not feel comfortable with a situation, listen to yourself. Please be safe out there!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Day 59 - My motivational edge

For those of you who know me, you know that my nephew, Michael left this past Sat. for Afghanistan. He is a Marine and is over there defending us against our greatest evil. It's sad to me because, I still remember changing his diaper and him singing, "Bye, Bye Miss American Pie". Now he is in his 20's and doing great things for us. I have always felt that he was someone special, but I think this is the icing on the cake. So, may God and Saint Michael the Archangel, protect him and his troop from the evil that they face.

Today, I had to channel Michael, to be able to get through my jog. I started week 5which consisted of 3 (5 min) jogs surrounded by 2.5 min fast past walks. It was hard, I'm not going to lie. The first 5 mins., I had to walk for about 20 seconds towards the end and then I picked it back up to finish it. As I was walking, I started thinking of him and where/what he is doing. I looked inside myself and I realized, crap, if he can do that, then I can do this! So for my next 2 jogs, I pushed myself. It's funny, there was this kind of peace that came over me. It didn't seem to be kicking my ass. I actually seemed to be working it. It's pretty funny, that feeling after you get done your total jog. The breathlessness, the holy crap, what the hell did I just accomplish, that queen of the world feeling....There truly isn't anything like it! Just don't tell Kristin, she will never let me live that statement down.

So my motivational edge is my nephew, Michael. He is an awesome person doing amazing things! God love him!

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Day 57 - Great Googlie, Mooglie!

OK people, I'm just putting this out there...You do not want to eat chicken fingers, artichoke and spinach dip before a jog...not good. Although, it tasted good going down, it offers no real fuel for jogging. At least that's what I'm going with for today's down fall of my jogging.

I'm not sure who I'm kidding with this jogging crap. Just got done my last day of my 4th week. I pretty much got slammed in the face today. My whole family went jogging and I realized as both of my sons jogged with me....they were walking and my jog wasn't much faster then them. Somethings not right here. When I'm jogging by myself, it seems like I'm going so my faster....I just don't get it. Then both of them are asking me questions as we or I was jogging. Sorry boys, mommy can't talk and jog at the same time, or mommy will pass out! Meanwhile Hubby is jogging up a storm.....WHAT?????? This is just crazy! Out of the 3 days that I jogged this week, I was only able to complete all of my jogs on one day...ONE DAY!!!! Next week, I'm suppose to jog for 8 minutes or something like that...I can't even get past a 5 minute jog, what the hell am I going to do with 8 minutes. It mights as well be the whole 3.2 miles....that just seems so out of reach!

On a bright note, in the last 2 months I lost a total of 16 inches (that's a collection all over my body). So with that being pretty cool, my scales says something else...I'm still only down 10 lbs. My scale and I aren't speaking right now....I think we both need some time apart....It's better that way!

Until my next jog....Keep moving!

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Day 54 - Oh, Happy Day!

Yesterday I did the first day of the 4 week...Walk 5min, jog 3min, walk 2.5min, jog 5min. and then repeat. Guess what I did it!!!!!! The first 5 min. jog didn't really phase me. I actually felt like I could have gone on a little more. Oh course the last 5 min. jog, I honestly felt like the guy that was telling me to jog was holding out of the last 1 of that jog....Seriously, that last minute felt like forever!

Tomorrow is my next jog and for a treat, I'm going to check my measurements and post the results. I took them when I first start in Jan. I figured that the scale might not tell what I want to hear, but I knew that my clothes would start to fit differently and they are. So, I'll check those tomorrow and let everyone know.

Exciting! Have a great day or should I say, "Oh, Happy Day!"

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Day 50 - What..the french toast??????????

Today I completed week 3 and feel pretty good....OK pretty tired! Let me just say, Aleeve is my friend. My joints are sore after this run today. Next week I start to throw in 5 minute jogging intervals....Not looking forward to that!

Recently, I read something that made sense. "We set our own limits and it is up to us to keep pushing those limits". This didn't make sense until today. As I was jogging my first 90 second jog (not the last 3 min jog), I just felt like, why am I doing this, I'm never going to be able to complete my 3 minute jog. Well, I pushed through. It helped a great deal seeing my hubby out there on the track. I enjoy just having him out there with me, I don't want him to be right next to me, because I know that I would be keeping him back. But, just seeing him on the track with me, makes me feel so good. Thank you Hun, I love you!

OK, now on to my weight. I stayed the same this week, yet again! For some reason I had problems this week, staying focused on the big prize (better health). Then I made a call to some important people in my life. During that conversation, I realized what I'm still fighting my own self doubt. Throughout this conversation, I heard a lot of sadness, not from me, but from the other person. All of the signs are there, that change needs to happen for them to survive, but they don't make those changes. After that call, I sat there for a few moments and realized, I can't control their situation, but I can control mine. You know, your whole life you see how everyone else handle their situations, good and bad. It's truly how you overcome what God puts in front of you, which defines who we become.

So, I still have some fight in me.......So, bring it on!!!!! I'm ready!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Day 45 - "Sweet Mother of Pearl"

I realized that I forgot to report my Sat. weigh-in. Well, I'm happy to say that I stayed the same. Which was partly because of what I ate the night before, pork chops. You see they are salty by themselves, but when you add ShakeNBake...well, lets just say that the salt contain may be a little higher then without. So, I'm still at 247.

Now, as for my quote in the title, I start week 3 of the Couch to 5K today. And if anyone has ever watch a SpongeBob cartoon, Mr. Krabs says that a lot when he is surprised about something. So, "Sweet Mother of Pearl!". I do not like week 3, it doesn't sound like much, but 3 minutes is a long time jogging. Especially, when you would rather sit on the sofa! I did that twice as well as 2, 90 second jogges. Is "jogges" even a word???? I don't know, I think I just inhaled too much Oxygen, my brain is over loaded with the stuff.

Anyway, I did it! Now I have to do it 2 more times this week and then next week envolves 5 minute jogges..."We aren't in Kansas anymore, Toto!" There's no place like the couch...There's no place like the couch.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Day - 39 2, week 2

To quote the great Bugs Bunny, "I'm dying, I tell ya! I'm dying!". Today was day 2, week 2 of the couch to 5K. OH, MY GOD!!! It's 6 intervals of 90 seconds, jogging and 2 min. in between walking. It doesn't sound like much, but those last 90 seconds feels like 90 years. I started looking around at anything to take my mind off of it. My legs are tired. My partner injured his calf part way through his trip. OK, so tell me again, why are we doing this??????

I have one more day on week 2, which I'll probably do on Sat. morning. I'll let you know how that goes. By the way, my hubby tells me week three is even worse...BRING IT ON!!!!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Day 35 - The weight is dropping

This is going to be quick. I weight myself this morning, week 2 of my weight loss program. I am now 247...I'm down 12 lbs. in 2 weeks...... It seems like the weight is just dropping off. Stay tuned.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Day 32 - Exactly 1 month as of yesterday

Yesterday was the 1 month anniversary for my journey to a new healthy life. This is the longest I think that I have stuck to something that felt like it was going to kill me. Between the calf cramps, sore shin, cramps under my ribs from all of the breathing like a wounded animal, I'm really proud!

I hated jogging/walking before, because it made me move. Move things that haven't been moved for a long, long, long, long.....time. You get the picture. Now, I can't say that I love it, but I feel like I'm actually accomplishing something. Writing this blog has helped me too. On the days that I don't write on here, I feel like my phone is going to ring and it will be Kristin, my Jillian Michaels. She and my hubby have kept me in the right frame of mind throughout this experience and I am very grateful to have both of them in my life. It has also helped me theroputically. Getting out my fears, self doubt and telling of my goals and accomplishments. Telling everyone where I was and where I want to be, is liberating. So many times my self-doubt tends to take over and I start to feel horrible, not worthly, but that is all changing. Letting all of these thoughts out, has started to open new doors.

Today was my biggest step, I bit the bullet and started the official Couch to 5K, from Cool Runnings. It wasn't as bad as I thought, but we'll see how I feel tomorrow.

So Happy Anniversary to me for sticking with this and seeing it through!! Go Chris, Go Chris!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Day 30 - I'm still here

Ok, everyone relax. I'm still here

Where to start? I know, the walk/job thing, I'm still at it. I've kept it at 3 miles, still walking and jogging. I struggled a bit the other day with my doubts. I was having trouble seeing the big picture. Asked myself, "How the hell are you going to be able to jog 3miles?". I was reminded that it's the small steps that will get me there. So, I'm still going!

Now, as far as my of this past Sat., I lost another 2 lbs. It's a total of 8 lbs. in 2 weeks. I know that it doesn't seem like a lot of weight, but my clothes are fitting better and some are actually baggy. Which is really cool!

Today, I feel like I'm starting to come down with something. Sniffles, coughing, etc....Blah, Blah, Blah.....I'm not going to let it stop me!

To be continued......

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Day 22 - Lifes lessons and how you handle them

I had a conversation with someone that I love and respect a great deal. During that conversation and few sarcastic comments were thrown out at me regarding my endeavor. Things like, "Good luck with that one!" and regarding my weight loss, "I've done that before and had no luck. Don't feel bad!" Now I don't think that this person meant for them to come across in a negative light, but they kind of did. It wasn't so much the words, but more so the tone in which they were said. (and No, it's not Hubby)

Now the old me would have handled it with the mind set of, why should I even try. Or, maybe they are right, what's the use. Instead, I'm going to use this as fuel. Fuel for my fight. Maybe they were just trying to be funny or maybe they have a little self doubt of their own. I don't think that anyone would want a person to fail. I want to show them that I can do it! You know what, I want to show them that they can do this too!

So, if you are trying something new or maybe just challenging, take what is said to you, both good and bad and just run with it....Pun intended. Instead of letting these words eat a whole of doubt in your mind, put them to good use. Use them to fuel that fire!

My grandmother always said, "Never put yourself down, there are tons of other people that will be there to do it for you!"

Remember, you are your best friend and use that to your advantage.

PS, I still love and respect this person very much.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Day 21 - 3 Miles

Today, I met my friend Kelly at the track. It was nice hanging our with her, even though my part of the conversation sounded a lot like an obscene phone call, with all of my heavy breathing. We did 3 miles today. We might have jogged maybe a little more than a half mile, but we did the whole 3 miles in 50 minutes. It went real quick and it was a lot of fun. Every now and again, it's nice to switch things up. My feet are a little tired, but I feel pretty good.

The weather wasn't the best, misty and a chilly 34 degrees. Perfect weather, right?

Alright, now for my weight. Drum roll please.........I lost 6 lbs. Sweet! Bring on the next week.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Day 20 - 2nd at home weigh-in tomorrow

Tomorrow is the big day, it's been 1 week since I've started keeping track of my food and cutting down on my calories. It really hasn't been that bad. I've been doing some really good recipes, which have been helping out. OK, except the Penne madness earlier in the week, the rest have been good. The family seems to be enjoying the recipes too. I actually got them to eat kale...KALE!!!

During the day, I've been trying to keep busy, with my walk/jogs. The house is really clean. You see if I sit too long, I start to mindless eat. That's where you have a bowl of something and before you know it, you're wondering where the food went. You swear that someone else ate it all. You know what I mean.

Anyway, this week I'll start pushing myself with the Cool Runnings, Couch to 5K program. It is a 9 week program. I see the last 20 days, as a warm up. I think that I needed that, so that I totally don't shock my body when I start a strict program. I think that if I didn't do that, my body would be saying right now, "What the %@$@#???" Instead, it's just kind of going with the motion.

My calves have stopped hurting for the most part and my breathing no longer sounds as if I'm sucking wind. It almost has a rhythm to it....Alright, I'm still sucking wind but, it feels good.

I'm starting to get proud of what I've accomplished so far and where I'm going. Each time I start feel like I can't go any further, I push myself a little more.

I'll let you know how I do tomorrow.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Day 17 - Penne Pasta with yogurt sauce...Not so good!

Ok, you can't say that I don't try new things. Last night, I tried a new recipe, Penne with yogurt, tomato & basil. Sounds good, right? That would be a, NO! My Hubby is the only one in my family that sat there and ate it. I tried 2 bites, hoping that I could make it past the bitter, nastiness that I had just put into my mouth. Wasn't happening! My oldest son tried a few bites and my youngest looked at me, while I had this look on my face and decided that he wasn't ready to try this meal......So, I had a salad, YUM!

Didn't get my workout in last night. So, tonight, I'm getting it done.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Day 16 - Back out there

I know that this is Monday, I'm kind of back tracking.

Sat morning, Hubby and I went for our walk/jog. OK, we mis-calculated the distance from our driveway to the front of our sub-division. It is actually, out and back, a mile and a 1/2. Cool, so I've actually been doing a mile and a 1/2 instead of 1 mile. No wonder I've been so tired. Today, I'm waiting for Hubby to come home and do our walk/jog... I can't wait to call it just a JOG....Soon!

As far as my food changes, it's been 2 days and counting. I've been making some new recipes and the family seems to like them, which makes this a lot easier. I have been feeling a little hungry, so I've been hitting the water. Also, thank God for Quaker Rice Snacks, Carmel Corn....Yum! Here's just a sample of the recipes from the last 2 days: Chicken Picatta and Teriyaki Glazed Salmon. Today is going to be Penne w/yogurt, tomato and basil. I'll have to let you know how that one goes.

PS, don't tell the hubby that it's yogurt...that's our secret! :)

As far as how much weight I plan to loose, I'm looking at probably 100 lbs. I know that the first week should be a big number, that's because it's mainly water weight. But, that's ok, it's going to be a loss. I'm going to do it the right way, I've brought out my old Weight Watchers books and I've started keeping a journal and counting points. So far, I'm very excited!

Friday, January 22, 2010

Day 14 - Listen to your body!

For the last 2 days I haven't been feeling right. I went to the Dr today, my blood pressure was up, 150/100. Now my blood pressure has never been an issue. But for the last 3 maybe 4 months I haven't been very active. MY WEIGHT HAS FINALLY CAUGHT UP TO ME! If you know me, it's no surprise, I am over weight. Just by looking at me you can see that. Now it's not a matter of wanting to do this, but it a matter of having to do this. I really do think that this is God's way of telling me, "I gave you good blood test results and you still weren't taking me seriously!" So guess what, I'm taking it very seriously, now. So seriously that I'm posting my weight on here. I know, some of you are sitting there going, "This girl is trippin!" Yes I am trippin, but I need to be held accountable for my weight just like I'm being held accountable for my running. So here I go....oh, and by the way, I'm not doing the usual, "I have to start a diet on Monday. It just doesn't make sense to start a diet on a Friday." I am starting today, Friday! And it's not a diet, it's a change in my life!

OK, my weight as of today, is 259 lbs. Crap, I can't believe I just typed that and I'm not trying to erase it.

SO, there it is. I'm really hoping that someone, anyone will take this information and see themself in the same situation. And see that they too can make a change for the better.

Please keep supporting me, I'll need it!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Day 12 - Took a little time off

I decided to take yesterday and today off from running. Just needed a little break. I'll start back tomorrow. Until then!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Day 10 - Family Affair

As Sly and the Family Stone sang, "It's a Family Affair".

The whole family went to Heardmont Park today. The boys rode their RipSticks and Sean and I did our walking/jogging thing. Have you ever seen one of those RipSticks? Basically, it's a skateboard, but it is broken up into 2 pieces with a metal rod connecting them. The 2 pieces move separately, so you have to wiggle to get it to go, or you can go down hill. So, if my heart rate wasn't elevated by the walk, it was elevated by my 7 year old going down some small hills on his RipStick. All in all, it was a beautiful day, low 60's and the sun was shining.

We walk our 1st mile on the trials and then headed to the track for the 2nd mile. It wasn't too bad. I did my mile on the track in about 18 minutes and I jogged a little less then a 1/2 mile. I'll keep working on it.

I think tomorrow will be cardio. I have the Jillian Michaels, 30-minute Shred. Bring it on Jillian!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Day 9 - My hubby is the best-even though I was cursing him out under my breath!

Today...I did not want to do my run! My back was a little sore, my legs were a little tired, etc...blah, blah, blah. But my hubby, dear old Sean, got me out there. We did our mile and it wasn't pretty. As soon as we started walking, my right calf seemed to seize up. But I continued to walk. Sean stayed by my side, kind of like the geese couple that you see along side of the road. Usually, though, one of them has gotten hit and the other one, it's mate, stays there because they mate for life. Yeah, this was exactly the same, but only different. As far as I know, I didn't get hit by a car. Although, I felt like it.

Anyway, we jogged a little and then power walked. On the way back, he pushed me to jog a little more. Then we made it down the last hill and Sean looked at me, we then started to jog the last bit of our walk. I think that I have jogged more today then all the other walks put together. Thank you for pushing me!

I love you!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Day 8 - Crappy weather, but I still got it in

Ok, Like I said yesterday, today it was suppose to rain. Well, it did! Did that stop me, HELL NO! I even took my dog. He wasn't so happy, but he got over it real quick. The rain was one of those pain in the ass types. But I kept telling myself that I'm already wet, just keep going. I tell you what, that hot shower afterwards felt reall good.

Today I actually had one of the best walks ever. I pushed myself to jog a little further then I have been. My breathing was good and my calves didn't cramp up. Now I'm not saying that I jogged a mile or even a might have been a little under a quarter of a mile, but the idea is, I jogged and didn't stop short of where I wanted to. I feel pretty good, it may seem like a small accomplishment, but for me that's big!

It has really helped me, posting my thoughts out here for all to see (all 4 of you) :) My struggles, my little big deals. I use to keep this type of stuff all bottled up inside, which would just eat away at me and I would never complete what I set out to do. There is something different about this time. I feel like I not only let myself down if I don't get my walk/jog in, I let all 4 of you down. So I hope that this journey that I'm taking helps someone out there, find there way!

Oh, by the way, I put a shirt on today that has been snug on me, guess's not so snug anymore. I didn't tug at it at all today. That's a good feeling! I know that the numbers on the scale will eventually change, but for now I'll go by how my clothes fit.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Day 7- And it continues.....

Today I'm fighting the mental battle. I am trying to focus on the short term. Working towards that first 5K. Knowing that my previous exercise experience was pretty much lifting my hand, with the remote and changing the channel on the TV. It's very difficult for me to fight the aches and pains that I'm feeling. It's as if I have a monkey sitting on my back. Not a cute little monkey, we are talking freckin KING KONG!

I know a lot of what I'm feeling is because of my weight...So therefore, it must go! So, I guess I'll start keeping everyone posted on that battle as well. Sorry, I'm not going to tell everyone what my starting weight is, but I'll keep you posted on my losses.

I would like to take a moment to thank Kim for the book, "The Non-Runner's Marathon Guide for Women". This book is so funny, yet it's full of some good info. I'm halfway through already. This book is about a women, named Dawn and her journey from the couch to a marathon. She too was a lot like me. If you are interested in running, you should read this book. It's a fun way to look at all of you aches and pains.

I'm hoping I can get my walk in tomorrow, we are suppose to have rain. We'll see

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Day - 5, Am I really going to make it to my goal???

Let me just start by saying, last night was the worst night sleep that I could have possibly have. Sean, God love him, snored...not a cute little zzzzzz, but a sucking the wallpaper off the wall, type snore. I think I slept all of 5 hours....

Ok, so then this morning I went for my walk/jog. It was a little more difficult being so tired. I'm finding that my calves are cramping some when I'm walking and my shins hurt a little. I'm trying to fight through it.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Day 4 - ...And then she rested

I just wasn't feeling it today. My legs weren't sore, they were just tired. I didn't have it in me. But tomorrow, oh tomorrow, I'll be back out there!

I'm trying to watch what I've been eating. So far so good. I've stopped my 2pm sweets and my mindless snacking at night, while watching TV. We went out to dinner tonight and I actually only ate half of what was on my plate. (Trust me, I could have downed everything on my plate). Then the whole family shared a piece of cake. I only had a few bits, again, I could have downed the whole thing.

If anyone who reads this blog can offer some healthy recipes or even some cool, jammin music to jog to, please let me know.

Onto tomorrow.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Day 3 - I think that I just tired out my dog

I'm not sure that I can keep this blog up everyday, so if I miss a few days here and there, please don't hold it against me.

Well, let me start with this, if you can't get outside for you walk/jog, use the Wii. I tell you, this morning I did the 30 Day Challenge on Wii Active. Oh my God, it kicked my ASS! It's pretty cool, I went inline skating, played tennis, played baseball, basketball, did some boxing and did some power squats....all in my own home...Ouch!

A little while ago, my dog, Rocky came up to me looking all pathetic. I asked if he wanted to go for a walk and he started wagging his tail. Now, I don't think he realized that I meant a walk/jog, not stop and sniff/pee every five feet or so. He is now past out in his bed and the cat is looking at him like, "What did she do to you, man?..What did she do???"

We managed to do a mile again and my hubby wants to walk tonight too. Keep it coming!

Oh ya, in case you are keeping track, the weather right now is in the 40's. Heat wave!

Talk to you soon

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Day 2 -- It's so cold out

OK, I woke up this morning with a nasty sinus headache. You know the one, where your eyes feel as if they are going to explode, as well as your forehead. Have to plow through it, right???

Today, it's in the low 30's and I still have to get out there and do my walk/jog. The boys (including the oldest boy, my hubby) went to the football field, so instead of me having a quite 2 hours at home. I decided to head to the walking trail at the park. This isn't your average walking trail. It has hills that would make Mt. Everest look like an ant hill...ok, maybe not Mt. Everest, but these hills are killer. I was able to log 2 Miles of fast past walking and a little jogging. I think at one point, I saw little sparkly things. But that could have been because I was winded. I quess my biggest thing for today was that instead of staying home, I got out there and did my walk. I tell you what, the music that I have on my Ipod is helping! I have a little Kanye, Pink and Lady Ga Ga, along with some other music. I just kind of blast that and block everything else out of my mind and do what I came there to do.

I'm not really feeling sore today. My legs are a little tired, but other than that, not too bad. Oh and by the way, my headache is a thing of the past. Fresh, 30 degree weather really does wonders.

Also, thank you to my Facebook friends. Your support means the world to me. And Sean, thank you for taking the plung with me. I couldn't do this without you and Kristin.
Talk to you soon.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Day 1 -- 17 degrees and I'm starting

This truly started this Christmas. My best friend back home handed me a challenge, to run a marathon in a little over a year and 1/2. Her quote was, "If they can do it on the Biggest Loser, then you can!" Thanks to my Jillian! I love you like a sister. I've decided to start blogging about my experience with training for a marathon. If you know me you will understand how this is a great undertaking for me. I have a lot of negatives going against me, my weight, I have asthma, my parents health, the disagreements throughout my family, etc....the list could go on. For now though, I've decided that they are all mental and some of them I have no control over. I have gone to the doctor and have blood work done, everything good. So, I need to grab hold of the one thing that I can control and for years haven' health. For the last 39 years, I have put everyone else first and I have come in a very distant last place. Most of that time it was just because it was easy. MY TIME HAS COME! I'm done just coasting through my life, I want and need that change.

Starting today, Jan. 9, 2010, I have started. I've bought the fancy running shoes, I have my Ipod loaded with ass-kicking music and I'm ready! My hubby and I started this morning, in 17 degrees weather... 1 Mile down and lord knows how many more to go..... By the way, I wouldn't have started this journey if it wasn't for my two best friends, Kristin V., the one who handed me the challenge and Sean, my hubby, who without him to kick me in the butt in the morning, I wouldn't be able to do this for the next year and 1/2. Thank you both. To all my friends both near and far, thank you in advance for all of your support. Maybe I can inspire someone through my experience.